I joined a netball rec league.

Yesterday the kids I nanny for said “Danielle we’re going to interview you, 1st question: how did you become so old?”

They’re always saying mean stuff to me, like “I was born in 2016” and “you’re older than Google and Youtube and dinosaurs and air”.

It makes me laugh, I was a sassy kid so its funny being on the other end of it now. I actually don’t envy this generation at all, I avoided COVID school and remember life before smartphones. My kindergarten school principal slipped into a coma from a bad batch of botox (stories you learn growing up in S Florida) so I plan to age naturally. We’re all kind of berated for aging with the passing of time anyway, do what feels best for you.

My ambition and exhaustion are are odds again. I got busier again and stopped keeping up with my dumb little walks. I keep getting too ambitious, signing up for workout classes, then when the day comes to attend, I feel too tired to go and lose $.

You might be thinking “what’s she always so tired from?”, PTSD is a hell of a drug.

If I do a workout at home, I usually stop 2 minutes in because I see dust on the floor and immediately go vacuum.

Habit stacking: As much as I want to be the type to go to a morning workout class, keep my place clean, dress well, hair dry, meals healthy, etc I’m not. It requires an energy I don’t have.

Bus rides to work & class - Instead of scrolling on my phone or listening to stuff, I’m going to try and prepare a few things to read/study on my way there, then less for me to do when I get home.

Trying to avoid veering back into toxic productivity, and thinking of it more as use this inevitable time (commute) doing something you’d rather be done with when you get home at the end of the day.

Joining a recreational netball league: I have never played a group sport in my life, but I want to exercise, need to meet adults my age since all I do is babysit, and netball is a distinctly British sport. With my athletic skills this might result in a net negative but I do plan to google the rules soon and combining exercise + socializing + new things in London = more time for me to lay down.

When I was a kid spending a lot of time on Emma Watson Dot Net I read she did netball at her secondary school during breaks from filming so maybe she’ll be there if she gets a ride cause last I heard her license was suspended.